Search Our Hearts, Oh God.
Have you ever experienced crayons on the wall? The other day, my daughter made a masterpiece of pink and green crayon on the wall next to our stairs. She knew she wasn’t supposed to do it, knew she would get in trouble, but this did not stop her from having a great time all over the wall. She was proud in her disobedience...that is until she heard Mommy coming. I watched her try to wipe the crayon off with a paper towel. I watched her try to hang coats in front of the markings so I wouldn’t see. Despite her efforts, the crayon remained as a glaring example of the mess she made. It was only Mommy and a Mr.Clean Magic Eraser that were sufficient to clean the wall.
We are like this with our lives. We all struggle with our sin. Sin we don’t want others to see. Sin that we are ashamed of. We try in vain to cover it up. We grab our coats and hang them in front of the crayons on our walls. Sometimes we succeed at hiding it from our friends and family. Sometimes we conceal our sin so well, we even forget it is there. But God sees our sin. God sees us as we are. We cannot put up a pretense with God. We are reminded that God knows us. He knows our words before they are spoken. He knows all our thoughts and all our actions, even those we try to hide.
Read Psalm 139: 1-8 "O LORD, You have searched me and known me, You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether. You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it. Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend into heaven, You are there;If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there."
There is nothing about us, good or bad that God cannot see. He formed us and He loves us and desires for us to turnover our sin to Him so he may cleanse us.
Let Psalm 139: 23-24 be your prayer today. "Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting."
Take great comfort in knowing that God sees you for who you really are, from the inside out. His love and grace are unending. Ours attempts to cover sin and clean the walls of ours heart are like trying to remove the crayon with a paper towel...fruitless and insufficient to cleanse and make us whole. God’s grace is the magic eraser that makes us shiny and new. It is through His grace that we are made clean.
“Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever.” 2 Chronicles 16:34