Paradise Calvary Chapel

Devotionals

Learning How To Trust
Anonymous - Dec. 5, 2014
Devotional

Learning How To Trust I have been given a testimony that the Lord wants me to share for His glory! For I have experienced many trials and tribulations, starting around the age of three to six years old; That is when the molestation and sexual assault started. I have battled with alcohol and drugs most of my life, trying to fill the hole I had in my soul. I was searching for acceptance and love anywhere I could find it, obviously in all the wrong places! I even used school as a "safe haven" so that I did not have to go home. I have attempted suicide, where I begged God to let me die! When He didn't let me I realized that I must be here for a reason. I was homeless for five years off and on, but it was while I was pregnant with Layla, living in a tent in the desert, that I began to seek Him as much as I could. I would go to service in the park every Friday and noticed that I wanted to stay and hear the Word over anything else. It was at this time when I started listening to the radio station SOS every night, putting the radio up to my belly so Layla could hear the music too! I was still in a very volatile relationship and my first priority at that time was to survive, and to keep my baby safe (Layla). So, once I got off the streets, I knew that it was time for my life to change. Layla and I went to a domestic violence shelter for four months, then I admitted us to a treatment center where the seeds truly began to be planted in me. I never missed a service on Sundays, or the Bible Studies on Thursdays, both of which were through Calvary churches. I applied to a Ministry Home after I was in treatment for fourteen months and was accepted. I was saved November 6, 2012! The Lord did an Amazing Work in me the very moment I gave my life to Him. He became my first priority and I know that without a shadow of doubt that... for the first time in my life, I can actually trust someone and know that I can have a pure and holy relationship filled with acceptance and most importantly, LOVE! Through all these events the Lord was teaching me how to trust Him and how to rely on His faithfulness. Whatever events we go through in life we can have confidence that God is there for us and we can trust Him and His plan for our lives. Be reminded that no earthly pleasure can satisfy your soul but that only the Lord can! Psalm 18:2, “The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold” Want to find out more about what it means to have a personal relationship with God? You can read more about God’s Plan of Redemption or contact the ministry team with any questions.