The last year and a half the Lord has been doctoring me from a season of rebellion. Relationally speaking, I had distanced myself from Him. So now, every time He brings me to Scripture or every time He speaks to me through prayer, He brings me to a deeper understanding of what was happening in my heart during that time. So through the last week He had brought me to Zephaniah. A book I had never invested time in before and even reading through it the first time left me bewildered, looking at the Lord thinking, “uh huh, and? Lord, I have heard this before.” His continual stories of redemption are so repetitive in Scripture that reading through Zephaniah almost brought me to annoyance.
I needed to understand why I became the way that I did because it scared me. I was reading my Bible and praying every single day. And when I felt my heart hardening itself toward the Lord I cried out to Him; I wanted Him to take it away, to pour extra grace on me. But Satan just kept attacking and I kept falling until I was just done. I was done caring. It was so painful. So of course, began the rut of sin; A nice 2 year-ish long pattern of a rotting heart. So as the Lord draws me closer to Him every day He brought a lot of healing with Zephaniah. Not just its story of the Lord destroying everything and rebuilding it but the way the Lord opened up my heart and ministered to me in the duration of the book.
Zephaniah is about Jesus. About God destroying everything, the preparation of the Sacrifice, and how the day of the LORD will be terrible. Key verse for Chapter 1:
V12 At that time I will search Jerusalem with lamps and punish those who are complacent, who are like wine left on its dregs, who think, ‘The LORD will do nothing, either good or bad.’
This is definitely one of the first steps in rebellion of a Christian. When Satan is attacking it can drive you to a place of hopelessness, where you don’t have faith that the Lord is going to act. Key verse for chapter 2:
V15 This is the city of revelry that lived in safety. She said to herself, “I am the one! And there is none besides me.” What a ruin she has become, a lair for wild beasts! All who pass by her scoff and shake their fists.
Once you have given up on growing closer to the Lord all you have left is yourself. Key verse for chapter 3:
V17 The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”
Then the Lord redeems you again; washes you in His love. I didn’t see Him with me anymore, so Him being the Great Potter, He changed the shape of my vessel. I had lost sight of His heart to save. I had forgotten I had His favor. I didn’t believe that His yoke is easy and His burden is light. I let go of gratitude and joy. But He redeemed me, bringing me back to my first love, always reminding me of who He truly is.