My whole life, I have dealt with a huge secret that I rarely let others see. It is so deep in my soul that to cover up what I am hiding, I have the tendency to portray arrogance, confidence and sometimes even an "I'm better than you" attitude. The fact of the matter is that as a man I often feel extremely insufficient and completely inadequate. Most recently there has been a chain of events that have unveiled my secret and highlighted it to the people around me.
My family and I have been under major attacks from the enemy. These are the kind of attacks that feel like a nonstop militant strike. Between the spiritual and relational attacks, physical sickness and financial difficulty type of trials and tribulations, for the first time in a very long time I do not have the answers or solutions. I also have started to see myself losing faith. My heart is beginning to spiral into a constant kamikaze tailspin and it feels as if there is nothing that I can do!
I wish I could just hit that "easy" button from the Staples commercials and that everything would turn out like a Disney movie. The truth is that without Christ we are all insufficient and there is no "easy" button. The only way to navigate through these times successfully is through prayer and through the Word of GOD. Hebrews 4:16 lays out the guidelines for what followers of Christ are to do in our most desperate times of need; it says, “Let us draw near with confidence to the throne of Grace, that we may receive mercy and may find grace to help in time of need.” We are commanded to draw near to the Lord and through His mercy and grace that is the only place where we will find sufficiency through Christ Jesus.
He has also shown me that I am adequate because of who I am in Him. The gifts, skills and talents that I do possess come from the Lord and he has built me up to be the man I am to fulfill HIS purpose and not my own. When we look to the Lord, not only does He lift us up, He also reminds us of who we are in Him and that is completely sufficient for me! Thank you Jesus for the work you have done in our hearts and in our lives!
2 Corinthians 12:9, “And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”