"For the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David. O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, but behold, O LORD you know it all together. You have hedged me behind and before, and laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it." Psalm 139:1-6
Oh, how beautiful is His pursuit? His gentle gaze upon you with pure love. "I cannot attain it." His Pure Intimate Pursuit.
It may be strange to think of Christs' love as being pure while being intimate. Yet, the Lord has shown me over and over again of how I have never understood that is how my relationship should be with Him. The word pure in greek is katharos which means to be complete, free from blemishes, and chaste. The word intimate is greek is oikeios meaning deep and detailed, personal, and associated with a close personal relationship. Pursuit in greek is epidioxi meaning an effort to secure or attain, the act of pursuing. So in a way Jesus Christ is making an effort to attain a close personal relationship with us that is complete and free from all blemishes.
If we are being completely vulnerable, this is something I have struggled with, and am still struggling with. Why would someone want to get to know my selfish, prideful and often dramatic little self? Who would really take the time to do that? Right now I'm in a season of waiting. Waiting for God to bring me a godly husband. Waiting for something huge to happen career-wise. Waiting to finally have the words to write on paper that I can later record. Yet not once have I taken the time to wait on what Christ wants from me, and to allow Him into my day to day life. I am guilty of being "too busy" to hear His still small voice. He has searched me! Meaning He has gone over every single detail of my thoughts, my fears, my shortcomings, my desires and yet He still searches me to know me. I am someone who can be easily distracted. The littlest things that the enemy throws my way shifts my attention towards that. But the Lord sees and knows that and it causes Him to pursue me more. I thank God that He pursues me daily and desires to know me intimately. He wants the same relationship with you!