“The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; For the Lord upholds him with His hand.” Psalms 37:23 & 24
There can be so many questions on my mind these days. Am I supposed to do this thing? Am I supposed to go this way? Is this the right thing to do? Inevitably, I will fail, just as every man has failed. Eventually, I came to terms with the painful fact that I am not perfect. It can feel like I always make mistakes, stumble, and fall down.
I am a waiter at a restaurant, and part of my job is to deliver the customer’s food to their table. I have these stress dreams where I go and get the food, bring it out in front of everyone, and then drop the plate. Then the dream resets and I do it all again, over and over and over again. I stumble and mess up, and it makes me think of how we can sometimes mess up in this life. Before I came to the Lord, I thought Christians had this “easy life” and that they never did any wrong and always thought higher of themselves. Now, after being with the Lord these last 6 years, I have learned that Christians are, in actuality, very hard on themselves. We compare ourselves to Jesus and try to be more like Him, and when we inevitably fail, we take it hard on ourselves.
Recently, the Lord led me to this Scripture: “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way.” Immediately, my heart was at peace as I remember the story of King David; a man after God’s heart who messed up, a lot, but was nonetheless always seeking the Lord. God delighted in his ways because he always sought God. Then I realized that this is the way that the Lord feels about us. We mess up, and He knows that, but He also knows that we have accepted His Son as our Lord and Savior, and so He is delighted in the path we have chosen to walk. “Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; For the Lord upholds him with His hand.” Praise God for not letting us be utterly cast down! God always upholds us, always strengthens us, always loves us. He literally holds us up when we should have died, and He instead shows us grace and mercy! I am always at peace remembering that we have not been utterly cast down, but that the Lord Jesus upholds us with His sacrifice and love for us. It can be hard to remember this, especially when it seems that all we can do is mess things up, but remember this: Let us not be troubled in our hearts, nor be saddened, for God delights in our ways and upholds us!